Days #86 & 87:
My description of yesterday would have to be like the book of Genisis describes creation. Yesterday was church. It was church and it was good. That's about it. Nothing extraordinary happened yesterday other than the kids were eerily good. They were quiet and listened throughout the entire lesson. I almost forgot what to say because I've never really had their undivided attention all the way through the lesson before. Shocking.
Today, my heart is sad for the family of a very special person. This dashing young fellow was my Matt Finley. The cutest, sweetest, most wonderful guy I ever met. He gave the best hugs. He had the cutest smile that sparkled all the way up to his eyes. I was going to marry him. All my friends knew it (and were sick of hearing about it). I had the wedding planned. But 6 years ago today, those plans changed. I can't believe it's been 6 years. I haven't planned a wedding since. All of our worlds came to a crashing hault in one phone call. 6 years later, I noticed death doesn't get any easier. I'm sure the Finleys would agree. Holidays, Birthdays, and Anniversaries still suck. You start to forget the little things and that hurts. BUT I did find a quote from Robert Frost that says, "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life. It goes on." Robert Frost got it. The world does not stop spinning just because you are sad or mad. So go on. If not for yourself, but for them. I miss you and still love ya, Matt Finley! :0)
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